This is a great question. The fact that you're asking it means you're curious about the impact of your growing up life on your present day life. It's okay to wonder if help, change, and hope are available.
Awareness that something is off is a great thing. It means we are stepping out of a protective mechanism called denial. When we become aware of something we can then do something we the issue, concern, or problem at hand.
I recommend checking out my other blogpost where I talk about the traits of an Adult Child of an Alcoholic, Addict, and/or Dysfunctional family unit:
If you resonate with some or all of the traits listed, I'd recommend picking up the book: Adult Children of Alcoholics by Janet Woititz. If you're interested in unpacking how your past family of origin dynamics are playing out in the present, I'd love to complete a complimentary consultation call with you. There is hope and healing is possible!
I'm cheering for you!
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